First off, many thanks to those of you who have read my first few posts and encouraged me in this little endeavor– it means the world. The blog was started on a whim (mostly) but is slowly becoming a wonderful writing outlet for me and a place to store some treasured family memories. I hope I can keep it up.
Lately, I have been thinking about being a mother of just one child.
Unlike a lot of our dear friends who added child number two when child number one was around two years old, our family has taken a different path.
While I feel so richly blessed as a family of three, I often find myself wondering and worrying about parenting future children. How will I possibly juggle it? What will our days look like? Silly questions for right now, aren’t they?
It may be natural, but they are silly when they cause me to miss out on savoring these days of just Audrey and me. I don’t want to look back on this season of just the two of us and wish I had really enjoyed it instead of worrying about hypothetical futures.
Never again will I have the chance to parent (just) one curious little two year old by reading books (uninterrupted!) every morning or by having time to sit and talk to her as she slowly wakes up from a nap. The future will hopefully bring many blessings, but they will be different from these blessings. And I don’t want to miss these while they are here.
Please, please, please don’t hear me saying that I am against having multiple children. My husband and I both come from families with siblings and we very much want Audrey to have siblings one day, too. I just want to enjoy the blessings of this season for what they are. I don’t want to miss out on being a mother to one.
Other mamas (and papas), do you ever find yourself unable to enjoy the present because you are worrying about hypothetical futures? What do you do to savor the present?